Fearfully and wonderfully made.

Wonderfully, sure I get, but isn't fearfully supposed to carry a negative connotation? And if so, how could God use that word to describe me? 

Growing up as a pastor's daughter, I had the propensity of memorizing bible verses for the sake of, well to be honest, just memorizing them. But as I have gotten older and as Jesus has continued to pursue me closer to His heart, I have become more curious as to the deeper meaning in Scripture. 

And as an advocate for the empowerment of women, I found myself puzzled as I stumbled through one of the "classics".

Psalm 139:14

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.


Fearfully. It made me cringe for a moment as I remembered all the ex-loves of my life that were never really loves at all. The string of men in my past, all of whom I had loved fearfully. I recall not a single day going by without that lingering feeling of apprehension; nervous as to whether or not he would like me today or not. Whether he would hurt me today or not. Desperately picking petals off a dying flower. He loves me. He loves me not. 

I was desperate to understand why in the world God would use fearfully in relation to me. For too long I had skimmed past this word and onto the lighter sounding, nicer sounding words in the Bible. I had become so used to overlooking the difficult stuff in my past relationships that repression and progression had become my default. 

But as I delved deeper into the heart behind the word I feared, I became astounded by what I found. 

Just 18 days after conception, the baby’s heart starts beating. 

Arms and legs form from a strategically placed cluster of cells that grow into themselves over the course of the 9 months.

It only takes 3 weeks for the growing fetus to start developing a brain, from cognitive process to motor reflexes as well as how we feel, see, and perceive the world around us. 

Apparently babies cry with an accent! A research team at the University of Wurzburg found that within three months, babies are heavily influenced by environmental language while inside the womb.

During the developmental stage, babies have 50% more bones than adults!

Touch is the first sense to develop in the womb at 8 weeks of pregnancy. 

(Source: BabyGaga)


Fearfully made is essentially this. Fearfully made means you see something that is so overwhelming that you say, "Whoever made this, should not be messed with. Whoever made this should be worshipped."

Fearfully made doesn't mean anxiety that something bad is about to happen but rather, a holy fear that we are in the Presence of One too magnanimous, too marvellous for words. 

In light of my love for fashion, I liken this to the kind of jaw dropping awe I experience each time I witness the wonder of garments created by Christian Dior. When I observe the intricate craftsmanship and handiwork in and through each design, I cannot help but praise the original genius behind it all.

Such is the case with the Original Genius and Designer behind the creation of ME. And YOU. I mean WOW. Stop for a moment and let that sink in for a moment. What would happen if in the face of all the lies that told us we weren't good enough, we remembered who our Creator is? How would our confidence rise if we could fully comprehend the loving intention woven into the fabric of our whole being?


Friends, let me tell you how this profound truth would forever change us. We would be UNRIVALED in the glory of God's love for us. Gone would be the false spirit of comparison and envy. One of the greatest things I have learned is that God does not love us equally, for equal would mean that we are replaceable. No beloved, you and I are are loved (and created!) uniquely meaning a one-of-a-kind, a blueprint unlike any other. 

I pray that as you read this the words would coax you out of darkness and into His marvellous light. That when the world around you witnesses the glory manifested within you, wondering where you source your beauty, that you would humbly peel back the Designer label reading:



Photography: Lyda Ham Photography