WHAT IF THERE'S MORE?

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What if this is it? Is life just a meaningless string of events where you are lost in translation?

What if you're right? And flirting with danger would only last a night and leave you unharmed in the long run?

What if it's true? They say "everyone is doing it" anyway so what's one more statistic?

What if no one notices? Because if you feel this insignificant, you can't be accounted for anyway.

What if this is it?

These are a few lies that we believe. The secret thoughts we struggle with in the deep recesses of our souls. The mess we try to photoshop and filter away into picture perfect faux-lawlessness. We internalize and reason and debate with ourselves on a loop that seems endless. What if... what if...

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But what if there's more? What if each day is ordained for a specific purpose and your role is to play an irreplaceable role in an epic journey?

What if you're wrong? What if taking even a tiny step into that lair of darkness pulls you in faster and harder than you are equipped to handle?

What if it's false? What if the cheap promises lead to a dead-end and a broken heart? 

What if you are seen? By a God who crafted you fearfully and wonderfully in His image, with a greater plan and purpose for your life? 

What if there's more?

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Your life is far too precious to gamble on a guessing game that belittles your innate value. Each day is a gift not promised, with an opportunity to maximize JOY to its fullest potential. I find that often we are our own biggest enemy; that we are most unforgiving with the past and unrelenting in comparison with ourselves. I'll be the first to admit that I am simultaneously my biggest advocate AND biggest bully. 

This is why I have found that the art of commanding truth over lies is one of the most crucial tools in a fruitful and fulfilled life! That most often, it isn't actually my circumstances that need to change but rather, my mindset. So how does one begin to combat the inexplicable maze of self-doubt?

"Whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things." (Philippians 4:8)

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I find that a sure-fire way towards victory over the battlefield of the mind is focusing your entire being - heart, soul, and mind - only on that which edifies you. This is the checklist I run through during a personal "heart check" as I like to call it:

Is this true about what God says about me as chosen, special, royal, holy, and light-filled?

Does this act honor the woman of value I know I am?

Is this just and an example of fairness I can be proud of?

Are my actions a result of pure intentions and an honest heart?

Are these words lovely and contributing to an encouraging environment?

Is this step commendable in regards to the integrity and dignity I strive to uphold?

Does this thought contribute to the excellent character I desire to embody?

Even if I am alone, are these thoughts and actions praiseworthy?

Full disclaimer: I am by no means rattling off a  of self-righteous rules saying that if you miss a mark on this list then "shame on you!" If anything, let me go ahead and burst your worry bubble / give you relief in sharing the spoiler alert that you will 100% fail on checking off multiple items (more realistically every single item) on this list at one time or another. AND THAT'S OKAY. 

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The point is that raising your standard and  actively choosing to think on things that are empowering to heart, soul, and mind should always ADD to your confidence and never take away from your dignity. And in the many times I have been caught up in the what if's of life, measuring against whether or not my inherent value is reinforced and celebrated has proven to always be a wise idea. 

Why do I advocate in believing for more? Because life is not a string of random events and empty encounters; but rather a journey with a unique purpose to your existence. Because a revelation of your worth is worth fighting for and protecting.

Because not only is there so much more.

YOU, Beloved, are so much more.

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**All photography is owned by MEGA MAGAZINE per the January 2018 Spirit of Success Feature with Nika Diwa.

Sprit of Success by MEGA MAGAZINE // Written by Trina Epilepsia Boutain // Photography by Yukie Sarto of Studio 100