My heart beats, standing on the edge

But my feet have finally left the ledge

Giving into your gravity  

Knowing you are holding me

I'm not afraid

-I'm Letting Go by Francesca Battistelli  

All of us know the heart thumping, palm sweating feeling right before taking a big leap of faith into the unknown. For me personally, I've battled with control for most of my life. Because life is so unpredictable and can be unexpectedly tumultuous, I tend to grasp on to as much control as I possibly can. The problem is that is ends up being a lot like desperately trying to chase the wind. You can feel it but it's always just out of reach and never truly attainable.  

I believe one of the most important valuable lessons one can learn in life is the art of letting go. Lao Tzo said, “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need.” I believe that a main reason letting go is so challenging is the fear of the unfamilar. We are generally creatures of habit and anything outside our comfort zone often seems too unbearable to face. What is counter-intuitive seems too terrifying. But what ends up happening when we succumb to this fear is we miss out on the innumerable possibilities and opportunities that could enrich our lives for the better. 

I have found this to be true so many times throughout my life. As a teenager I remained in several abusive relationships never daring to leave because although the pain felt insufferable at least it was familiar. I cried during my first week in New York City because I didn't have friends to find comfort in even though I had finally landed a spot in my dream fashion college. The day I left my steady corporate fashion job to blog full time I was plagued with anxiety because I couldn't imagine what I would possibly do with my new-found freedom and space to create. And yet for each and every situation in which I found myself in a death grip on my "ledge", when I finally decided to let go, the free fall was the most exhilarating and liberating experience. 

The choice to trust in God's plan for me is the fuel for free falling. Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." God's plan for us is a lot like a safety net; the same hands that hold the entire universe are holding you. Isn't that wild?! 

What would you do if your Father owned all the planets and everything inhabiting them? If your Father owned time itself, controlled all power, and set each and every moment into motion all with a single word? What if you fully realized that all that and more IS a reality for you and me?! Ohhh how I pray that we are granted eyes to see, ears to hear, and hearts to feel the gravity of this truth! 

"Yours, Lord, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the splendor and the majesty, for everything in the heavens and on earth belongs to You. Yours, Lord, is the kingdom, and You are exalted as head over all. Riches and honor come from You, and You are the ruler of everything. Power and might are in Your hand, and it is in Your hand to make great and to give strength to all." -1 Chronicles 29:11-12

If we honestly realized the fullness of our inheritance based on who our Father is, I truly believe that courage would trump fear every single time. I know what it is like to work out all the potential disasters, missing the mark completely on what could have been had I answered the call. I know what it is like for my knuckles to turn white from grasping onto my past too tightly, paralyzed in my own skin for what lies ahead. 

But that fear in you that creeps in causing hesitation and blocking you from leaping in faith is not a part of your inherent design. We were created to be beings of POWER, emboldened by the freedom of the gospel. No force in hell and no person on earth can thwart the plans God has for you if you would just trust His heart towards you! "What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived the things God has prepared for those who love him." -1 Corinthians 2:9. 

The most liberating secret to finally letting go is that in Christ you are equipped with a superhero ability and assurance that every time you release your grip and free fall... you will fly.

So let go. 


Xoxo, Diwa Doll


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