When I was 6 years old I had a recurring nightmare about my parents passing away unexpectedly.  I would wake up in a state of panic, frantically reassuring myself that I had decades ahead of me before that would ever happen. I would then run into my parents' bedroom and hop under their covers while dad prayed over me and mom held my hand until I finally drifted back to sleep. I was running desperately from Time. 

When I was 19 years old I hit rock bottom after a series of tumultuous relationships. I found myself isolated from family and friends and detached from my own sense of self-worth and value. My mind became my worst enemy as it replayed each haunting memory leading up to my demise like a broken VHS tape. I was incessantly haunted by Time.

When the honeymoon phase of my marriage ended a couple months ago and my husband and I got into our first "married fight", I blurted out a sequence of horrible words in a fit of unbridled anger. Words that in no way held any weight to my true feelings but nonetheless carried impossible heaviness within each syllable. Even after I asked my gracious husband for forgiveness, I locked myself in the bathroom weeping in shame and wishing God would turn back the clock so that I could take it all back. I was held despairingly captive by Time. 

Today I am 27 years old and still catch myself attempting to cradle Time like sand slipping between my fingers. I happened upon Alice Through the Looking Glass on Netflix, a whimsical tale where Alice travels back to Wonderland to find the Hatter in a horrible state. The Hatter insists that the only way he will recover is for Alice to travel back in time to save his family.  In desperation, Alice steals the Chronosphere from Time (played by Sasha Baron Cohen) and goes back to several key events in the past to try and re-write history for the better. In a series of very unfortunate events (another wonderful Netflix series!), Alice realizes she can never go back and alter the past. Upon this epiphany she recalls Time's ominous warning, "You cannot change the past. Though I dare say, you might learn something from it."

I saw so much of myself in Alice as she nearly drove herself mad attempting to re-assemble broken pieces of a troubled past. I could not help the tears streaming down my face as I witnessed the familiar grimacing lines on her forehead as she chased after this fleeting ghost we call Time, only to find that he cannot be caught. But alas, redemption had the final word in the end of the story. And the curious thing is, the healing was not dependent on re-writing history. Rather all things turned around for good once Alice chose to reconcile the past with the present. Turns out, the secret to unshackling fear of Time was living unapologetically today, secure of the future!

I'm going to level with you honestly here. It would be nearly impossible for me to move forward in the fullness of joy regardless of my past, without security in my future. Without a hope in the days to come, I simply couldn't garner the strength to press on. But I have good news that changes everything! Not only are we given hope for tomorrow, we are given a promise signed by the blood of the Lamb. God Himself sent His Only Son to die for you and me as a means to stand in as a perfect guarantee to complete salvation. There isn't a better guarantor to sign for you than that! Fired up by this revelation, I decided to go back through Alice Through the Looking Glass to offer a response to all the despairing remarks and questions regarding Time.  I like to think of it as Nika Through the Word of God!

"Everyone parts with everything eventually, my dear." -Time, Alice Through the Looking Glass

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." -Romans 8:38-39


"You cannot escape Time." -Time, Alice Through the Looking Glass

"My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies, from those who pursue me." -Psalm 31:15


"Is it true that you heal all wounds?" - The Mad Hatter, Alice Through the Looking Glass

"But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed." -Isaiah 53:5


Today I am 27 years old and my past is still marked with painful choices and consequent heartache. But my present rests in a much more powerful and tangible truth. Because of Christ, I am a chosen person, a royal heir, a holy daughter and God's special possession, who has been called out of the darkness and into His marvelous light! (1 Peter 2:9) My future is immortally secure for The Lord knows the plans He has for me. Plans to prosper and not harm me. Plans for a hope and a future! (Jeremiah 29:11) You see, Time is not an enemy but rather a ticking reminder that each day is a gift granted by grace and not a second ought to be wasted. 

In celebration of Time, I have partnered with the amazing JORD Watches. My new watch's name is Frankie 35 and she is made from dark sandalwood, slate, and a whole lotta-love! Not only is the craftsmanship of the highest quality, but I was also very pleased with JORD's attentive customer service, particularly in sizing my watch. I usually stay away from purchasing watches online in fear that the fit will be incorrect, but everything from the sizing chart to my personal watch specialist made the whole process so seamless! I also really love how the wood-based  aesthetic of the watches remain unique to one another in hardware and embellishments so that there is something for every style! 

If you are contemplating the perfect Valentines gift for your loved one, look no further! Love is TIMELESS, and what a better way to warm the heart of your sweetie than gifting a natural wood watch from JORD? This way, they'll know your time always has and will continue to belong to them (feel free to use that in your V-Day card, free of charge! *wink, wink*). As a bonus, you can even have the back of the watch engraved with a custom message to make the gift extra special! 

Lastly, make sure to enter my #JORDwatches instant giveaway by clicking here. All entrants will receive an e-gift code for $25 off a watch of their choice and when the contest concludes, one lucky winner will receive a  code for $100 off a watch of their choice! This giveaway ends January 22, 2017 so hurry and get in on this sweet gift now! 


Xoxo, Diwa Doll


Photography: Mirna Plakalovic Photography 


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