New Years Resolutions. Even as I type the words my fingers freeze in conjunction with my mind as I try to evoke my personal response to the weightiest phrase of the year. It is utterly paralyzing to make a promise to span throughout the next 365 days when we are creatures of habitual failure constantly in need of grace. It is far too heavy and impossible a burden in my opinion. Why wait until December 31st to choose better when every day has a final hour and every minute has a final second? My issue with New Years resolutions is that every day is a choice to resolve because every day could be your final hour. Your final midnight. 

A current trending Facebook meme is describes 2016 vs 2017. 2016 is as a dark hole of despair marked with insurmountable obstacles and brokenness; while 2017 promises a dramatic comeback to once and for all "get it together" and proclaim to the world that you have finally "arrived" [Replace "arrived" with your New Years resolution]. Think Meryl Streep in August Osage County vs. Devil Wears Prada. 

We all chuckle because we are aware of how utterly silly it is to put such an impossible pressure on a new year to save our dire circumstances. But at the same time for many it is the only hope to pin on for much needed change. We think perhaps a year will hold 365 times more power to fix "it" [Replace "it" with the opposite of your New Years resolution].

But what if resolution isn't a Big Bang Theory type of magic to hit once a year at midnight? What if resolving is  a daily, moment by moment transformation? "Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." (Philippians‬ ‭3:12-14‬)

Onwards and upwards is our path to glory. The prize is too magnificent to hold in a year; rather, it rolls up into eternity. "What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived — the things God has prepared for those who love him." (1 Corinthians 2:9) In light of this profound truth, you are free. Free to fail, free to get up, free to press on again and again. All in light of the knowledge that you are fully known yet fully loved by Christ. 

To be untouchable in resolve frees one to supernaturally forgive, extend grace, and love fully. So this year, my New Years resolution is a daily prayer: “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.” (Psalm‬ ‭51:10)

My hope and prayer is that you would embrace the very hour you are in as if it is your last. Be aggressive towards forgiveness. Lavish yourself with kindness. Embrace the seconds that pass by with a determination to love in all that you do. Tonight as you ring in the new year, laugh irresponsibly and dance until you need to kick off your heels because you have been given one life to live and your debt has been paid in full. So resolve to live it fully. 

Xoxo, Diwa Doll


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